Insufferable seekers of attention

Mind you, I am terribly sorry for not updating ‘to the moon and back’. Truth is, words got the better of me these days. But when a kind friend actually pointed that out to me, it dawned on me that someone actually cares, and that tiniest gesture was what putting me sitting cross legged, fingers running wild on the keyboard.

Should I number my entry this time, I was wondering. Because I cant manage to gather my thoughts, to put them together, to sound logical, because I have so many things suffocating me. Ok, one, I read a blog, of someone I know, who (pardon me if I’m wrong or judgmental) seriously tries to make herself feels better by repeatedly writing like what I would describe as an insufferable attention seeker who has got nothing better to do than make other people feel like they don’t deserve to live in this world. So what if you wear hijab, it makes you a better human being, aih??? If that is the only description of a good muslimah, then, Masya Allah, I pity you. As I’m writing this, I am contemplating the odds of hurting anyone at random, but please mind my language and all, I am just trying to draw the line, at least from my point of view, that some people are just ruthless. Ruthless in the sense that by making others look/feel bad, it changes oneself to feel better of oneself. Ok, done with this. I think my message is carried forward clearly by now.

Second, today I went to the ramadhan bazaar with the girls. And I have to confess, the fondness that I grow on them is getting humongous! Being with them, just being with them, I feel secure. I feel happy. And underneath all, I am endlessly thankful to the Almighty for the graciousness He bestows upon me and my friends. Macam sangat nostalgic it sounds, but I know, that, you who read this would feel the same. (I hope! Urks!)

Third, to Miss B, im sorry to hear about your ..um.. fall? Trust me, you’ll make almost perfect at whatever you will do. And I’m saying this only because nobody’s perfect, if not, you can be too!

Fourth *deleted*

Fifth, cerita melibatkan tikah di sudut membaca surat khabar. Hokay, macam ni, tikah, if you don’t already know, ternak ikan dalam bilik dia. Hihi. So she likes to see fish swims and she said that it’s actually good for us to watch fish say, like 20 minutes a day. So kitorang sama-sama tengok ikan guppy dalam aquarium dekat tempat suratkhabar tu. It distresses me. You people should try it sometimes!

And I’d really love to share this ayah.

“And (commanding you): Seek the forgiveness of your Lord, and turn to Him in repentance, that He may grant you good enjoyment, for a term appointed, and Bestow His abounding Grace to every owner of Grace. But if you turn away, then I fear for you the torment of a Great Day (the day of the Resurrection)” Surat Hud, ayah 3


See you soon!
F

wedding bells

selamat pengantin baru to my brother and future sister in law. al kisahnya percintaan mereka ini bermula di universiti malaysia pahang. lama babe bercinta, i've never actually talk with my brother about his love, coz he is far from romantic. but i guess,with the right reasons, they fell in love. to abg amer, adik ingat lagi abg amer kate adik pendek..seb baik kak feela tak. =)

love you both
selamat melayari alam berumahtangga

Today's bonus

My doctor was fuming mad yesterday. She said I had lost weight, I looked pale and dangerously thin. I gave her a blank look and said, doc, I’ve always been like this. And what else, she denied it of course. She said to me, gain some weight, with your current weight, its easy for you to catch tuberculosis, I was stunned silent. I gave her the ‘get real’ look and she understood me and commented, why don’t you try this drug and I straight away went to a drug store to buy it.


So today I am starting a new diet, a new routine.

Breakfast – mesti makan! And coffee

Lunch – this is the meal I most often skip, because I am still full from breakfast, I guess now, I am not going to skip any meal, any.

Evening tea – tea and biscuits ( cikut bak kata Lea)

Dinner – usually I take very small amount of rice, because I don’t really like to eat. I do eat a lot, like I’ve said, but only when the food is nice. I mean, I will not skip a fancy meal. I will not say NO to nasi beriani, nasi minyak, nasi hujan panas but with plain white rice, urgh….


And uh, I’m looking forward to take up a job offer by my brother in law. He needed assistance, and I needed the money. Voila. Off to work in no time!

Wonder what should I wear on my first day at work?

edisi terrer

my sister got 3.9 when she was doing her masters. i was astonished - given that she hardly had any time to read up anything.

now, my brother got 4.0 when he is doing his!

how come im not as good as them?? i thought i am the hardworking one, eh? haha...

takpe, takpe... i have one more semester to prove myself. (haha...time cuti bleh la azam lebih2 sket)

tolongla lecturers... nak jugak merasa dapat the flat result!

Untuk Abah

Today is the day for mixed feelings. I would say, I have to be extra careful to attend to my own emotions because I know these can kill me. I wanted to dwell on it, but no, let’s not do so.


Today is a great day to celebrate.

Abah, Happy 59th Birthday, words often fail me to express how much I appreciate you being here for me. I know that I am not the best child one could ever dream of, but as for me, I could never wish for a better person to father me. I wouldn’t trade you for anything else in this world. I pray, pray and pray hard that I can be with you at all times, pray that you are always mine.


Always Love

kerja la la la

woke up today feeling rather blue. i saw lea bathing cheekily. bagus anak sedara i ni, mandi sendiri..

mandi apa basah kaki je mek oii...

headed off to the kitchen, jenguk periuk, wow...nasi lemak. my fav meal. sat down and eat...coffee...few chunks of oreo..haha.. bestnye kat rumah..

then i spoke to my mom.

me: mak, adik nak kerja. boleh? (it's not like i'm asking her permission, i was actually telling her)

mak: uh? (stopped eating seraya mengangkat muka), kerja apa? bila? mana?

me: taktau lagi, kuantan la..

mak: hem...nanti abang amer nak kahwin kesian la mak sibuk. sapa nak tolong mak jaga hana dgn lea? (note that my sister is still berpantang so i didnt think much out of it) kerja la dgn kak ngah, babysitting?

me: ala mak. takkan jaga anak buah sendiri nak claim pulak..? tak nak lah.

mak: okeylah, adik kerja je untuk mak. adik nak berapa? mak bayar.

me: (uh..biar betul mak ni)... ehem.. kerja apa mak?

mak: nanti mak fikir..ye.

so there goes my ambition. ahah.













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al kisah

1. ada ke patut lea main aum chak dgn adik hana, dia pegi tutup muka hana dengan bantal? haha.... selambe dek je.. nasib baik la my sister sedar.

2. hobi lea yang baru - basuh pinggan

3. i pray for the best, my big bro is taking his exam today

4. my friend's younger sister called me today, asked me few things about studying law in IIU

5. i found a stack of my ex-boyfriend's photos stashed in one of my boxes. *can't bring myself to throw them away*

6. mybaby-you is not interested in catching up with my activities anymore

7. susahnya nak cari barang yang kita dah lama tak jumpa... wahai tabung, mana kau menghilangkan diri?

8. uh uh

9. bye.