Today's bonus

My doctor was fuming mad yesterday. She said I had lost weight, I looked pale and dangerously thin. I gave her a blank look and said, doc, I’ve always been like this. And what else, she denied it of course. She said to me, gain some weight, with your current weight, its easy for you to catch tuberculosis, I was stunned silent. I gave her the ‘get real’ look and she understood me and commented, why don’t you try this drug and I straight away went to a drug store to buy it.


So today I am starting a new diet, a new routine.

Breakfast – mesti makan! And coffee

Lunch – this is the meal I most often skip, because I am still full from breakfast, I guess now, I am not going to skip any meal, any.

Evening tea – tea and biscuits ( cikut bak kata Lea)

Dinner – usually I take very small amount of rice, because I don’t really like to eat. I do eat a lot, like I’ve said, but only when the food is nice. I mean, I will not skip a fancy meal. I will not say NO to nasi beriani, nasi minyak, nasi hujan panas but with plain white rice, urgh….


And uh, I’m looking forward to take up a job offer by my brother in law. He needed assistance, and I needed the money. Voila. Off to work in no time!

Wonder what should I wear on my first day at work?

edisi terrer

my sister got 3.9 when she was doing her masters. i was astonished - given that she hardly had any time to read up anything.

now, my brother got 4.0 when he is doing his!

how come im not as good as them?? i thought i am the hardworking one, eh? haha...

takpe, takpe... i have one more semester to prove myself. (haha...time cuti bleh la azam lebih2 sket)

tolongla lecturers... nak jugak merasa dapat the flat result!

Untuk Abah

Today is the day for mixed feelings. I would say, I have to be extra careful to attend to my own emotions because I know these can kill me. I wanted to dwell on it, but no, let’s not do so.


Today is a great day to celebrate.

Abah, Happy 59th Birthday, words often fail me to express how much I appreciate you being here for me. I know that I am not the best child one could ever dream of, but as for me, I could never wish for a better person to father me. I wouldn’t trade you for anything else in this world. I pray, pray and pray hard that I can be with you at all times, pray that you are always mine.


Always Love

kerja la la la

woke up today feeling rather blue. i saw lea bathing cheekily. bagus anak sedara i ni, mandi sendiri..

mandi apa basah kaki je mek oii...

headed off to the kitchen, jenguk periuk, wow...nasi lemak. my fav meal. sat down and eat...coffee...few chunks of oreo..haha.. bestnye kat rumah..

then i spoke to my mom.

me: mak, adik nak kerja. boleh? (it's not like i'm asking her permission, i was actually telling her)

mak: uh? (stopped eating seraya mengangkat muka), kerja apa? bila? mana?

me: taktau lagi, kuantan la..

mak: hem...nanti abang amer nak kahwin kesian la mak sibuk. sapa nak tolong mak jaga hana dgn lea? (note that my sister is still berpantang so i didnt think much out of it) kerja la dgn kak ngah, babysitting?

me: ala mak. takkan jaga anak buah sendiri nak claim pulak..? tak nak lah.

mak: okeylah, adik kerja je untuk mak. adik nak berapa? mak bayar.

me: (uh..biar betul mak ni)... ehem.. kerja apa mak?

mak: nanti mak fikir..ye.

so there goes my ambition. ahah.













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al kisah

1. ada ke patut lea main aum chak dgn adik hana, dia pegi tutup muka hana dengan bantal? haha.... selambe dek je.. nasib baik la my sister sedar.

2. hobi lea yang baru - basuh pinggan

3. i pray for the best, my big bro is taking his exam today

4. my friend's younger sister called me today, asked me few things about studying law in IIU

5. i found a stack of my ex-boyfriend's photos stashed in one of my boxes. *can't bring myself to throw them away*

6. mybaby-you is not interested in catching up with my activities anymore

7. susahnya nak cari barang yang kita dah lama tak jumpa... wahai tabung, mana kau menghilangkan diri?

8. uh uh

9. bye.

Allow me

Is it possible to have just one best friend? One whom you would share your life with, the ups and downs, never judges you, tells you when you are wrong and most of all, to forgive you for every mistake you did. At the earliest stage of my life, this is impossible. I’ve grown up with friends whom I think never take me for who I am. I constantly find myself prone to change and adaptation to meet their expectation. Anyways I am proud to call them friends. Although they were never my protector, (I guess mainly it was because I never needed one) they were there to support and encourage me to do well in school. I was the black sheep in my circle of friends. That was, till the day I found my best friend.

H, she is everything I am not. She is relaxed most of the time, she has her own point of view but rarely voiced it out loud. She is a simple lady with the sweetest smile and the nicest heart. Sometimes I wonder how we suited each other because there seems to be nothing in common between me and her. To cut the story short, we clicked. She accepted me wholeheartedly. I do not think there is one time she tried to change me, no, never. Hence it is why my love for her knows no boundaries. I can hardly meet her face to face but I sure think of her everyday.

And I was so doomed when I found out her relationship with a guy had lasted for so many years, how did I not see that? She said she was shy to let me know, afraid that I might make fun of her, but really, one person’s choice of man is no funny business to me. So H, if you ever happened to read this, allow me to apologize. I’m sure at times I tend to turn our friendship all about myself, but that was just to let you open up to me more.

Allow me to be part of your life exactly like you are in mine.

mari makan

Like Anthony Bourdain says, in a battle of brain, lungs and stomach, stomach will always prevail.

I woke up every morning to a heavy breakfast, usually it’s nasi lemak and kuih apam or samosa or pulut panggang. Then half an hour later I helped myself to a bowl of cereals or two, yes I do eat a lot. Then usually I tend to my nieces then I switched off to hibernate. Heh. Life at home is a bliss. Then I got myself back into the kitchen to see what mom is preparing for lunch, sat down and eat some more.

At night usually we do take outs. So mestila makan lagi, nanti membazir.



Jadi jika beginilah rutin harian saya, macamana mau qada’ puasa di rumah?

Cobaan……..