Wednesday, 2 December 2009
first and last- second chapter.
(am waiting for my parents to be discharged today and have just realised that this hospital has wireless internet connectivity. uh uh. this is so me!)
sebenarnya i've always wanted to write more about everyone. seronok dapat describe people, cos i would like the same for me kot? haha. ntahlah.. sy sound semakin macam nuur. bahaya ni. nuur2..apela awak tgh buat dengan borgy skang eh.. sy kenal nuur kat matric lagi, dia dgn tikah slalu datang bilik sy bila ada makanan. biasanya makanan dari bonyo sebab mak bonyo suka masak and bonyo suka bungkus dekat sy. hihi. nuur, kalau awak baca ni, awak mesti senyum. sy hari2 tido peluk teddy awak bagi sy. sy rasa korang sume tau how much sy adore nuur (sila rujuk entry yang lepas ye) hihi..
bazlaa: first sekali, sorry lupa sangat nak upload gambar (ahah, lupa ke tatau..) banyak gambar awak dgn paan dalam camera sy. bazlaa ni cool kan? dia selalu nampak macam tahu apa dia nak, and she is a good daughter from the relationship i saw when i first met her family. they were warm and they make me feel like, well, home. bazlaa, nanti kita jgnla tak contact each other ok. tak banyak nak kata pasal bazlaa, sebab to me, dia yang paling hush hush dalam chillaweyhs. kan kan?
borgy: first sekali, borgy, mak sy tak cam awak bila sy tunjuk gambar dinner. dia kata lawa sangat. hihi.. (ok, silakan perasan sekejap). borgy is strict when it comes to what she believes in. i think thats the best quality about her. she says yes when she means yes. ala, ala ala calling a spade, a spade lah ni. i remember the few times we had dinners together, of course bon ikut jugak, and i think i began to grow fondness of you at that point of time. and ditambah pulak with those times when we studied together for jurisprudence tests, kan? ahh, come to think of it, i kinda miss the anticipation of waiting what will come up in the questions (maybe i'll further my studies kot..) so borgy, from the bottom of my heart, hit the road and show the world the person you are!
azraa: azraa, nanti sy baca blog awak k. buat masa ni, sy restricted sket. hihi.. azraa ni pun no nonsense girl jugak, dia gila-gila jugak and what is it that i remember about her most? maybe perangai azraa yang study sambil baring pgg nota mallow sambil telinga sumbat earphone atas katil sakinah kot? hahahah..
alamak, ada jugak lagi yang tak sempat tulis, i gtg pack the stuff to go home.
love ya all
...to be continued...
Wednesday, 25 November 2009
first and last
kenapa korang sangat special?
kita mulakan dengan aifaa: ive known her as long as i can remember. since we were little kids playing rollerblades and cycle around the neighbourhood, that was a different me, different her. but then i get to meet her again, after so long, we've outgrown our fanciness to rollerblades and popia pedas makcik kat kedai kat tok sira tu.. kan aifaa kan? yet i am still connected to her. aifaa, we parted ways depan rumah bazlaa, and i hope you remain the person u've become, becoz i so love that person right now!
milo.. i have tons of questions for her.. hehe. and i think you know why. milo is one of a kind. if she's a bra, she's a really good sports bra. always supportive and encouraging people in ways that we cant even imagine possible. i will remember her as WCE 81, and her announcement with Syahmi.. you rock my world sisterZ!Z!!
sheera.. if i were to talk about her, it would take me days!!! dia gila. she can fly, she can sing, she can julingkan mata dia, she can do things befitting of an insane! hahahahah... sheera, i wish i have known you earlier (so i can correct your deformities!!) kidding! true said, ive never had a friend like her. she is so easy going its like sometimes you dont know she's there. if sheera was a thing, she would be a peacock feather. beautiful and light. just what i need.
sherry.. you are the first chillaweyhs that i befriended. i really miss you. people can say what they want about you but i think i know you better. she's talented, smart, funny, and very loyal to her brood, right sis? let say i kill someone, i know i could trust her not to send me to jail (come to think of it, i might be the one people wont trust not to send them to jail coz u know, pae kan pengawas!) i miss you (oh i mention that already!!) if i have a cute brother i would introduce him to you.. see how much i trust you babe! i wish you all the best!
oh now sakinah, kinah sangat suka tolong orang, n sy paling suka pesan barang dengan sakinah,. dia pegi ikea pun sy kirim barang dgn dia. truth is, sakinah sangat suka tolong orang. ni mmg the characteristic that make people adore you kin..kinah is the third last person i said goodbye to. she helped me take off my curtains in the dorm cos i cant reached the top. sakinah, if you were a car, you would be a nissan grand livina tau. hiii nak tumpang keta kinah!!!!
alamak,, sy dah nak kena balik rumah (did i mention to you im at a cyber cafe right now..) busuk!!! ok, im chill. mwah people. nanti saya sambung!!!
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
You Know You Love Me…
Entry dedicated to Nuur Hidayah Abd Rasid – a true friend, a wise companion, probably the person I am most grateful to get to know her. She is forgiving and she doesn’t desire much, I think not only me, but most of you who know her would concur with me, that she is a transparent person who takes everything – be it good or bad (if bad, I think she pushes it all the way to the corner of her heart and fakes a smile about it). Sometimes I take her for granted, sometimes I don’t think she cares, but most of the time, I found myself running back to her safe embrace and know that she will help me get through with whatever mess I was in. nuur, you might be confused when exactly these incidents happened, but just so you know…
These 3 words…
8 letters…
I LOVE YOU
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being you.
You Know You Love Me…
Entry dedicated to Nuur Hidayah Abd Rasid – a true friend, a wise companion, probably the person I am most grateful to get to know her. She is forgiving and she doesn’t desire much, I think not only me, but most of you who know her would concur with me, that she is a transparent person who takes everything – be it good or bad (if bad, I think she pushes it all the way to the corner of her heart and fakes a smile about it). Sometimes I take her for granted, sometimes I don’t think she cares, but most of the time, I found myself running back to her safe embrace and know that she will help me get through with whatever mess I was in. nuur, you might be confused when exactly these incidents happened, but just so you know…
These 3 words…
8 letters…
I LOVE YOU
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being you.
Monday, 5 October 2009
hariku yang malang
alkisahnya hari ni. plus its that time of the month. rasa nak menangis. sedih gila.
the only thing that makes me feel lighter is, nasib baik ada aizat teman.. b, i love you. i tau i mereng sket. thank you for sticking to me. like a glue, u never fail to keep things together ^,^
p/s: kalau ada salah eja maafkan.
Thursday, 3 September 2009
Insufferable seekers of attention
Should I number my entry this time, I was wondering. Because I cant manage to gather my thoughts, to put them together, to sound logical, because I have so many things suffocating me. Ok, one, I read a blog, of someone I know, who (pardon me if I’m wrong or judgmental) seriously tries to make herself feels better by repeatedly writing like what I would describe as an insufferable attention seeker who has got nothing better to do than make other people feel like they don’t deserve to live in this world. So what if you wear hijab, it makes you a better human being, aih??? If that is the only description of a good muslimah, then, Masya Allah, I pity you. As I’m writing this, I am contemplating the odds of hurting anyone at random, but please mind my language and all, I am just trying to draw the line, at least from my point of view, that some people are just ruthless. Ruthless in the sense that by making others look/feel bad, it changes oneself to feel better of oneself. Ok, done with this. I think my message is carried forward clearly by now.
Second, today I went to the ramadhan bazaar with the girls. And I have to confess, the fondness that I grow on them is getting humongous! Being with them, just being with them, I feel secure. I feel happy. And underneath all, I am endlessly thankful to the Almighty for the graciousness He bestows upon me and my friends. Macam sangat nostalgic it sounds, but I know, that, you who read this would feel the same. (I hope! Urks!)
Third, to Miss B, im sorry to hear about your ..um.. fall? Trust me, you’ll make almost perfect at whatever you will do. And I’m saying this only because nobody’s perfect, if not, you can be too!
Fourth *deleted*
Fifth, cerita melibatkan tikah di sudut membaca surat khabar. Hokay, macam ni, tikah, if you don’t already know, ternak ikan dalam bilik dia. Hihi. So she likes to see fish swims and she said that it’s actually good for us to watch fish say, like 20 minutes a day. So kitorang sama-sama tengok ikan guppy dalam aquarium dekat tempat suratkhabar tu. It distresses me. You people should try it sometimes!
And I’d really love to share this ayah.
“And (commanding you): Seek the forgiveness of your Lord, and turn to Him in repentance, that He may grant you good enjoyment, for a term appointed, and Bestow His abounding Grace to every owner of Grace. But if you turn away, then I fear for you the torment of a Great Day (the day of the Resurrection)” Surat Hud, ayah 3
See you soon!
F
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
wedding bells
love you both
selamat melayari alam berumahtangga
Wednesday, 27 May 2009
Today's bonus
So today I am starting a new diet, a new routine.
Breakfast – mesti makan! And coffee
Lunch – this is the meal I most often skip, because I am still full from breakfast, I guess now, I am not going to skip any meal, any.
Evening tea – tea and biscuits ( cikut bak kata Lea)
Dinner – usually I take very small amount of rice, because I don’t really like to eat. I do eat a lot, like I’ve said, but only when the food is nice. I mean, I will not skip a fancy meal. I will not say NO to nasi beriani, nasi minyak, nasi hujan panas but with plain white rice, urgh….
And uh, I’m looking forward to take up a job offer by my brother in law. He needed assistance, and I needed the money. Voila. Off to work in no time!
Wonder what should I wear on my first day at work?
Monday, 25 May 2009
edisi terrer
now, my brother got 4.0 when he is doing his!
how come im not as good as them?? i thought i am the hardworking one, eh? haha...
takpe, takpe... i have one more semester to prove myself. (haha...time cuti bleh la azam lebih2 sket)
tolongla lecturers... nak jugak merasa dapat the flat result!
Friday, 22 May 2009
Untuk Abah
Today is a great day to celebrate.
Abah, Happy 59th Birthday, words often fail me to express how much I appreciate you being here for me. I know that I am not the best child one could ever dream of, but as for me, I could never wish for a better person to father me. I wouldn’t trade you for anything else in this world. I pray, pray and pray hard that I can be with you at all times, pray that you are always mine.
Always Love
Tuesday, 19 May 2009
kerja la la la
then i spoke to my mom.
me: mak, adik nak kerja. boleh? (it's not like i'm asking her permission, i was actually telling her)
mak: uh? (stopped eating seraya mengangkat muka), kerja apa? bila? mana?
me: taktau lagi, kuantan la..
mak: hem...nanti abang amer nak kahwin kesian la mak sibuk. sapa nak tolong mak jaga hana dgn lea? (note that my sister is still berpantang so i didnt think much out of it) kerja la dgn kak ngah, babysitting?
me: ala mak. takkan jaga anak buah sendiri nak claim pulak..? tak nak lah.
mak: okeylah, adik kerja je untuk mak. adik nak berapa? mak bayar.
me: (uh..biar betul mak ni)... ehem.. kerja apa mak?
mak: nanti mak fikir..ye.
so there goes my ambition. ahah.
..
Tuesday, 12 May 2009
al kisah
2. hobi lea yang baru - basuh pinggan
3. i pray for the best, my big bro is taking his exam today
4. my friend's younger sister called me today, asked me few things about studying law in IIU
5. i found a stack of my ex-boyfriend's photos stashed in one of my boxes. *can't bring myself to throw them away*
6. mybaby-you is not interested in catching up with my activities anymore
7. susahnya nak cari barang yang kita dah lama tak jumpa... wahai tabung, mana kau menghilangkan diri?
8. uh uh
9. bye.
Sunday, 3 May 2009
Allow me
H, she is everything I am not. She is relaxed most of the time, she has her own point of view but rarely voiced it out loud. She is a simple lady with the sweetest smile and the nicest heart. Sometimes I wonder how we suited each other because there seems to be nothing in common between me and her. To cut the story short, we clicked. She accepted me wholeheartedly. I do not think there is one time she tried to change me, no, never. Hence it is why my love for her knows no boundaries. I can hardly meet her face to face but I sure think of her everyday.
And I was so doomed when I found out her relationship with a guy had lasted for so many years, how did I not see that? She said she was shy to let me know, afraid that I might make fun of her, but really, one person’s choice of man is no funny business to me. So H, if you ever happened to read this, allow me to apologize. I’m sure at times I tend to turn our friendship all about myself, but that was just to let you open up to me more.
Allow me to be part of your life exactly like you are in mine.
mari makan
I woke up every morning to a heavy breakfast, usually it’s nasi lemak and kuih apam or samosa or pulut panggang. Then half an hour later I helped myself to a bowl of cereals or two, yes I do eat a lot. Then usually I tend to my nieces then I switched off to hibernate. Heh. Life at home is a bliss. Then I got myself back into the kitchen to see what mom is preparing for lunch, sat down and eat some more.
At night usually we do take outs. So mestila makan lagi, nanti membazir.
Jadi jika beginilah rutin harian saya, macamana mau qada’ puasa di rumah?
Cobaan……..
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Hmm...macam betul..
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
HaPPy ReaDinG
For those who joined but are still clueless, the place that we stayed is named Misha Lea Villa. They’re my nieces, Lea Zulaikha and Misha Merissa. And oh, congratulations Kak Ngah and Abg Arif, dapat another baby! So far I think her name is Hana (both of them are indecisive to choose a name. heee)
24.04.2009
Members: Bonyo, Sheyfah, Faisya, Reza and me
6.30pm: Reached Beserah (phew finally!). Met my parents. Minum teh o, makan pengat pisang… Masa ni semua pun ala-ala malu malu tapi mau, lawak gile cakap dengan my parents pun sume delicate n penuh kepalsuan..hihi.. acah je, I would say, it was an excellent first impression coz my parents seemed to adore korang kan..kan..siap2 mandi n went to eat at Tanjung Lumpur…menu…ikan siakap stim, ikan kerapu tiga rasa, sotong celup tepung, lala goreng berlada, sayur kailan ikan masin. Paling best ada orang belanja… Time Kasih abg Arif!
Sheyfah found her sanctuary kat 7E Beserah. Faisya cakap Sheyfah pilih barang LAMA gile. Untuk sebotol ubat batuk n 2 packs of biscuits, adala dalam 20 minit. (kagum eh Beserah ada 7E cepah???)
12.00am: Main card kat bilik the boys… sekor2 tunjuk belang…tibe2 ada menda mistik jadi. Hihi… tamau la citer skang, yang ni kite citer time bukak cuti sekolah je la.
25.04.2009
Members: Tambah Borgy & Erma
Supposed kitorang start panjat bukit at 7am, tapi manusia hanya merancang…so dipendekkan cerita, kitorang start aktiviti hiking Bukit Teluk Cempedak to Bukit Pelindung at 10am. Borgy only went like, one tenth of the xpdc.( then dia duk tepi pantai layan lagu korea. Cet) It was challenging, fun, plus dapat tgk peluh2 keluar dari liang roma so I think my body is grateful to me. Heh! Kitorang encountered scouts boys and girls aka ‘pengangkap’ who were having their activity as well. And a humungous scorpion! Nasib baik Sherry tak terpijak ni.. then we headed off to Air Terjun Sungai Pancing. Jumpa ular pulak time mandi. Heh, adventurous gle trip kitorang neh! Agak2 peluh hiking dah suci, kitorang pun stop mandi. It was a warm day and the water was not as chilly as we hoped, but anyhow, it was worth paying RM1 per person. (ye..entrance to mother nature pon kena charge nowadays)
Then without wasting our adrenalin rush, pegi pulak makan in Kemaman, Terengganu. The price was unbelievable! RM 70 for seven people, seriously, we ate like we haven’t eaten for ages padahal sume pun makan jajan n roti butterscotch (recommended bread!) masa mandi. In Kemaman we ate sata, otak-otak, mee hoon sup, nasik air, sotong celup tepung lagi skali, and…em..that was it kot. Tapi weh, memang kenyang gile. Next time datang Kemaman mesti pegi tau kedai Che Wan ni. So far I tak penah disappointed!
Malamnya we had barbeque. Makan lagi… nampaknya most of our xpdc ni comprised of food tasting ye rakan-rakan..! My mom was so nice she bought us ikan pari helang (sting ray with cute dots on them), ayam, sotong, and kerang. The girls all helped prepared the items and the boys tukang bakar. B’s parents came to join us, so all in all, sangat-sangat meriah kitorang malam tu.
[Sebenarnya kesian tgk friends yang duduk KL and jarang dapat makan seafood yang segar. Even R said it was his first time makan ikan pari…aww….so sweet (four years~)]
Two fairies helped with the dishes and my dad later took a picture of us all. It was at this time that it hit me, damn, I’ll miss this company of friends terribly, you people have made these three days the shortest days ever! We went back to our ‘hostel’ and played cards some more. Ajar E main bluff, skali the first game lagi dia dah menang. Cet. Sorry le wei, masa ni I dah lalok gile I just had to lie down n did not play along…
26.04.2009
Breakfast at Restoran Zaman, went for a movie at Berjaya Megamall. We watched a Malay horror film, Jangan Tegur. The movie is ok, but the crowd was really something so the film turned out to be more of a comedy than a horror film. Then we all had lunch at 3pm at Coffee Street. I think by this time everybody dreaded to go back because it would mean that the holiday cum escape adventure had come to an end. Sob sob.
My parents and I thank you people so much, minta halalkan apa yang terkurang ye. I am definitely hoping to have this again sometime in the future. A thousand thanks from Haji Aris and family, seriously guys, I THANK YOU.
Sunday, 19 April 2009
How Will I Spend My Hols?
Mak kata, adik, ambilkan handphone mak dalam kereta.
Kak ngah kata, dik, handbag ngah tadi adik bawak naik atas tak?
Ok, so this is what I am during my breaks. I’m everybody’s personal assistant at home. Because I’m everybody’s “adik”. As simple as that, I’ve asserted my responsibility. You do what you are told to do. I don’t mind all the attention really, its just who I am. Kadang-kadang terbawa-bawa perangai adik ni dgn mybaby-you. (eh chup..kadang-kadang ke sokmo-sokmo?) haha…
Go Kart, Playground & Barbeque
Who said life in school is cool? They definitely hadn’t been to a university! Hihi.
Allowances are increased, mom is less protective than before, friends don’t do shit like in school anymore (ala..macam nak merajuk sebab somebody dapat jadi “AJK PENGANGKAP” and she didnt).
I think I speak for the majority on this part. I’ve heard how S and I told stories bout their “escape adventure’ during school days… well mate, in university you don’t have to run… u have just got to hide.
*love being in a state of libertee*
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
Sukanya Bila Dia Ceria
Mdm Seri Syah: Hanum, do you like this class?
And me, being one who can never really answer a question point blank, used up a few friends’ name to re-iterate how much I enjoyed her class. To my surprise, somebody was actually paying attention to what I said. * We exchange looks *
I got to know mybaby-you on my 19th birthday, yep, on the day itself. I went to the field with N to see him after his football match and I would say we clicked almost instantaneously. He was charming, charming in his own cute yet dominating ways. I didn’t take it as anything serious back then because *it was complicated*.
Jadi entry ini ditujukan buat mybaby-you. (harap orang lain tidak muntah. Ngeeee)
He is an inspiration, not quite the pillar of my strength, but the one whom I’ve always trusted not to let me down, in any ways, in this life and hopefully in the hereafter too. Kenapa dia sangat istimewa di mata saya? Hanya Tuhan yang Maha Mengetahui.
Let me disclose five random things about him which he dislikes the most, in no particular order.
1. “a controlling Queen”
2. bad customer service especially when they charged us astronomically
3. waking up when he doesn’t get enough sleep, but sadly I cannot tolerate this because his ideal sleeping hours seem to stretch more than ten continuous hours.
4. when I’m too lazy to drive even though he asks me to
5. people with BO.. especially chicks.
(mula-mula bercerita pasal kakak, kemudian teman istimewa, kenapa untuk diri sendiri tiada entry…mungkin masih tercari-cari identiti…)
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
to the moon and back
So here goes.. in my first entry, I shall reveal my most treasured feelings at this moment.…
My sister is 37 weeks pregnant with the second child, she said this one’s a girl, just like the first. And it hits me right there and then, that she is actually scared of delivery! I mean, the first baby was delivered rather smoothly, I would say. She didn’t complaint of any pain, she was cleaning up her front porch when she felt weird down there. Within few hours, whoommmm! I’m an aunt! Subhanallah.
Now..i’m feeling a little bit giddy because I haven’t had enough sleep yesterday, no thanks to the construction workers (bising la korang!) and partly because I had to study for my exam, which, to my relief, ends very soon.
So.. this is my first entry, not quite exactly how I wanted it to be, but so so lah kan.. (I will try to be funnier next time! Promise!)
p/s: to the one person who once told me. “u ni, tak pernah nak cuba benda baru each time I suruh” – I hope this pleases you my dear…dedicated to my baby-you.